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qianda. thankyouhor. HAHAH.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009, 11:53 PM
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kitkat please.
, 11:14 PM
okay its been awhile since i've posted anything.

i'm tired.
tired as in tired. but not slpy o.O

these days have been reaallyyy packed.

thursday : alethea & bob came over to do props. we cut and painted stars & spots. but looks like we have to paint it all again ):

friday : jianbin & jasmin came over to do the group banner.
jianbin eats crazy alot for breakfast luh o.O

met gerard & jianbin, went all over the place.
bugis --> bras basah --> beach road --> back to bras basah --> taka --> my house.
LOL, whole day jianbin kena molested by hair. uh, back to my house to spray paint everything. walked jianbin to bus stop, my shadow taller than his :D & he said retarded 50 times today. he say learn from me o.O why he go and learn this kind of thing, gosh.

saturday : cellgroup. dinner. off to IT fair.
saw CANDY DARLING :D
gosh i miss her so much.

sunday : bus-ed to pasir ris meet peilin. nice to spend some time with her (:
service. everybody looked so pretty & handsome (: im too tired to upload pix, sorry. prob, on friday or after camp?

monday : ohgosh my brain is fried. wrongwrong. shall edit friday.
jianbin & jasmin came over to do the group banner.
jianbin eats crazy alot for breakfast luh o.O
yesh, this was monday not friday. hahah.

tuesday : amelia & yokfong came over to do props. we made a bird, i think we did an awesome job :D
they stayed for bbq.

wednesday : oh that's today.
morn had meeting with other grp ldrs of the tribe.
off to parkway, find shoes & meet joel buy present for ----
thanks joel for rushing down to pei me & sending me home (:
back home, rushed th prop stuff.
off to church. i tink i look like siaozhabor carrying 6 umbrellas a bird and on th bus sticking tape to the back of cardboard stars.
rehearsal.
thankyou daddy for helping me find tables, tho we didnt use them, but still thanks (:
&&& seriously im more stressed about this props thing then th group leading thing o.O
goshgoshgosh....
& now back home. i just ate my first meal of the day.

tomorrow is another packed day.
this is such a boring post.


&&& HOOOOW ):
I GOT NO TIME TO STUDY.
i'm so screwed ):


yes. im veryvery tired.
buuut.
I CAN DO THIS :D
YES I CAN.
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ZZ-ZZ! :D
Thursday, November 26, 2009, 1:31 AM
i bumped my head three times today.
almost fell up the stairs.
& dropped like dunno how many things.

Group meeting today, it was good :D
these two weeks are gna be packedd.
so not used to it.

& how in the world am i gna make the bird o.O





slowly, day by day.
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PANDA! :D
Wednesday, November 25, 2009, 3:39 AM
can't get to sleep.
so i is watching manymany videos now.
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have you noticed..
, 12:48 AM

after 2012 on thursdayyy.
the movie was okay i guess.
boring. scary. touching. mademethink.
i cried like, at alot of parts o.O

saturdayy. the soccer event. after lunch headed to tamp to walkwalkk.
thankyou daddy for carrying my bag :D which i thought finally broke but actually it hasn't broken yet :P
changed my plan. SUPER HAPPY I GOT UNLIMITED NOW :D :D :D

sundayy. church, sat at the side, super cold man, freezing cold.
announcement of grp members, steady luh, we have an awesome group :D
off to changkat to watch bball match.
bball is so much more interesting to watch then soccer :X
and daddy is zaiiii, im not biased. but he play until like so tired ):

saturday doesn't seem like saturday
& sunday doesn't seem like sunday.

monday. out with BIGBIGJIE!
walkwalked, talktalked.
ohyes i bought wedges :D
dinner-ed. & took lotsa peekturess!



jasmin's super cool webcam that detects faces & like stuff will come out. but it was like not workingggggg.. i tink too dark ):

it worked for awhile tho :D
i is snow white.







i got blueeeeeee eyes!

JASMIN CAN BREATHE FIREEEE!











todayy. dovey came over.
did haiiir. breathed in alot of chemicals. super stinky.




something's the matter.
i'm just too tired to figure out what & to do something about it.
the stress is gonna get to me soon.


everybody's wearing down

i be getting back to studying now.
or sleeping?
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the flow of blood through the heart : i got that totally memorized :D
Monday, November 23, 2009, 1:24 AM
HULLO!
it is 1:30.
yes i should be sleeping.
but i'm STUDYING.
i just got 98 on my bio test. YES UH! :D
the frying of brains did not go to waste.
But yes, i need to chionggggggggg. & do more in less time.

annnd. gosh i'm gonna be so busy from now til christmas luh.
being a camp group leader & doing the props for the christmas drama.
&&& i still have to complete my studies.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
getting stressed le o.O

& so to my dearest loved friends. I'm sorry if i can't spend so much time with you all. like going out and stuff. I really really want to, & i will try my best to prioritize my time & make time for you okay? But if i can't go out and stuff, please pardon me.


& my brain is going kuku. yesterday seems like it was last week/ month or something.
just now i eating fishball noodles & i asked eunice. eh issit, i was with you that time when i ate fishball noodles & i eat the chilli only put like 4 chilli. hahah!
yah. that was just yesterday.
OH o.O


okay, stop with the wasting of time. back to studying.
toooooooooooodles!
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dorydorydory.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 6:46 PM

my blog seems too ):
add something cheeery! (:
i love dory :D
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promise of a lifetime
, 6:18 PM
I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away

Then I remember the pledge you made to me

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I'm clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change

I still remember the pledge you made to me

I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside

And I am comforted




i think to be happy is a choice.
to be affected is a choice.
& yes i do have a choice over my thoughts.
i wanna hope & be joyful.
but right now i really feel so o.O T.T
cant let emotions control me.....

i need some fresh air.
stop raining please ):
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cus that's what time does.
, 4:30 PM

let go?


i feel like a robotwithchoadabrainsthatkeepsmalfunctioningandleaking.
studystudystudystudy marathon.
i feel ...................
okay i should stop feeling. or no, i should learn to control.

but gosh.
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you are my strong tower.
, 1:29 AM
And i'm tired and all alone
It seems like i've lost my way.
in the midst of all my fear.
you're my refuge and my hope


i think u can probably ignore my posts for today.
it's from a very tired & o.O merri.

gosh.
i'm super tired.
why can't i sleep.

super troubled.
super pukish.
& i cant stop the thinking.

but i'm glad i managed to be there for wy & i hope i did cheer him up and point him the right direction.
something he msged me. really encouraged me & it was worth it.
i hope that that's true.

but im just feeling super burdened you know?
& so very alone.
depend on God merri.
turn to Him.


now i'm running to Your mountain
where your mercy sets me free.

You are my strong tower.
a shelter over me
fortress when i'm weak.
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dovey's love.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009, 11:44 PM

JINGWEN & ME

Hey
you know hor
i keep thinking
like how u will lead a team
its kinda funny to me

LOL. thanks uh


LOL
not insulting or anything
but seriously its super funny

im not a leader kind, i know

No la
the way u lead is like
hahhahaha

wad!
wad is hahaha
:P

gonna be super cute la

LOL
why

then maybe screw up abit here and there
LOL
seriously
idk why, i keep thinking of Merri aka a leader
then diff scenarious keep popping up

like!
shareshare
haha

LOL
like
mmmm
like u lead ur team wrongly, maybe got like amazing race
than ur team missing for like 4 hours or something
coz leader dont know how read map
or something. LOL

awman!!!
HAHAHAHAAH
WEI
i got other ppl in my team also right!
can ask them ma :P

what if all noob de , then all like sec 1
they all follow blindly

LOL, then im so dead man

then like, AH
like first day confirm super awkward

u makin me nervous luh u, hahah.

i giving u preparations
so this dont happen
HAHAHAHA
but its just funny la , if u think of it
but u will be a goooooooooooood leader
:D

hahhaha
really uh
why u say tt

of course
haha
dont know leh, u just shy only what
also not like u dont know how lead or what
hahaha
u know, that time at Jolin house
then i think i was standing very near u
then i heard u pray in tongues
super wah

LOL
why

hahahah
dont know le
like u very strong in faith or whatever its called
then after that everytime i can recognise ur voice when praying in tongues
urs is like
very
confident kind le
like, seriously

tts super encouraging :D
thankyou

usually like the ppl around me their voice super soft when praying tongues
or like they will stop after awhile
then urs is like still goin strong
so i always recognise ur voice
then its like very confident kind
hahahaha

wa
okay i was feling super down
u really encouraged me
thankyou(:

hahah welcome :D
U SHOULD HEAR URSELF SOMEDAY

LOL

haha, but how bad can u screw up?
i mean seriously

i was too shy
n i din noe how to lead at that time
nobody listened to me
ums then my grp like no direction
everybody super sian
haha
but no worries
i shall force myself to have confidence
and break frm my shyness
:P
but in actuality
i really very scared ley
my confidence is like o.O

hahaha
can one!!!!!!!!!
maybe u those, meet stress or pressure then will become like super good leader :D

hahah!
hopefuly!
:D

but i am sure they chose u is not anyhow choose one, so confirm they see potential then choose :D




thankyou DOVEY.

you don't know how much this conversation meant to me (:

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break this coldness.
, 10:30 PM

i see the sky. i see the rainbows. i smell the flowers. i feel the rain. i feel the wind.
but i still feel so stuck here.

somehow, you remind me of my friend.
who always asked me if i'm okay? cus she sensed that i'm not.
& it's always that when she asks i'm quite ok, but after that, may be a day, may be later on in the day, may be a week later. But after i was asked, i'm not okay.
or i'm not okay, a lil weird, & it frustrates me like siao cus i can't figure out what it is exactly or i just can't bring it out in words.
i don't know if you get what i mean.
But it doesnt matter cus i'm not writing this for whoever is reading this anyways.






Out with joel today :D
though we didn't do much, just walkwalk talktalk.
But i still enjoyed myself.
thanks kor.
for the encouragement, advice, support, love (:

&& i boiled hot water to bathe :D
SUPER SHIOK :D
so india luh. reminds me of the time i spent in india.





i learnt today in bio that emotions affect our digestive system.
I feel super pukish now ):
i need to stop this.
cheeeeeeeeeeeeeer up merri :D


it's okay.
i'm learning.
i'm slowly getting there.
maybe i just need to figure this out alone.
cause i won't know how to explain myself to anybody right now anyways.
i don't even know how to explain it to myself.
I guess only He really knows.

though it seems to me that nothing's changing.
though i'm scared.
though i cry.
i'm learning to grow up. to understand. to depend on God.
i can do this.
& i'm okay (:
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studystudy
, 10:47 AM
ohmygoodness.
i think i have studied my brains out.
Today i woke up & my first thoughts were on what i studied yesterday o.O
i was still super seh. & when i woke up fully i was like ???? why am i studying first thing in the morning.

but i still haven't hit my goal of how much i wanna study in a day ):
but okay, i'm doing as much as i can & gosh i really hope i can finish this by the endofyear.


Yesterday was english. what shall i study todayyy?
i'm dreading history o.O
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chaoda-ed frozen brains
Monday, November 16, 2009, 8:10 PM

hahah. yes i shall stop being a slacker.



head's been pounding since i woke up..
amanda asked if i wanted go out for awhile to get groceries, din really wanna go cus of the headache.
But it's been a long time since we spent time together, so i wenttt.
& the minute i stepped out of the house i felt WAYYY better.
the after-the-rain-air is so refreshing :D

bought groceries, talked abt cell, silly stuff.
:D

back home, & the headache came back o.O
i think my room has a "headache aura" ):


& i told daddy i think i chaoda-ed my brains from all the studying. shall go bathe to unfry them.
& cus it rained today the water was SUPERR cold.
i think i have frozen brains now
&&&& i just saw my sister's blog, she said something about having frozen brains too. HAHAH.
we are awesome sisters we think alike :D
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